Friday, March 26, 2010
Why does time seem to be the bane of my existence? I was looking forward to today---a day with no commitments. And I woke up this morning with a knot of anxiety in my gut. I laid in bed and tried to just sit with that feeling and figure it out but I can't. All I could think of was that there were so many choices---so many things that I want to do---how do I choose?? I constantly feel that there aren't enough hours in the day, days in the week, weeks in the month and months in the year. And I guess that takes me to years in my life.....will I have enough??? I guess I need to work on being "in the moment". Sounds easy enough BUT.....it's not!!! I think I've been this way my entire life. Even as a kid I remember being very aware of time passing, of childhood racing by. I NEVER WANTED TO GROW UP!!!! I still don't!! I don't want to get to "the end" and feel like I've wasted it all. I better go get busy doing something!!!!