'TEN' by Nic Askew

In a dream more real than his daytime
A grown man meets himself.

Himself at just ten. With the light
In his eyes. And the world in his heart.

But he can't.

And in the deafening silence he shakes
Uncontrollably. As the years
Of an unconsidered life spill over.

And in that silence everything changes.

Forever.

Perhaps the ten year old
Had been his
Very soul in disguise.

Come to shake him
From the prison of his daytime.

This is Me Today!

I hope to be looking different by tomorrow!!!

Misc. Art

Awhile ago Motherbear mentioned that I should surround myself with art that I had done in the past to help inspire me. Well, I came across this old sketchbook and thought I would post a few things. All were done in classes at the Center and some are still unfinished.

DEPTH

I am not deep.

But I do......
feel deeply
love deeply
yearn deeply
grieve deeply
hurt deeply
care deeply
desire deeply

I want to be...
deeply motivated
deeply loved
deeply desired
deeply involved
deeply commited
looking deeply into your eyes
dreaming deeply

I can be...
deeply vulnerable
deeply sensitive
deeply inspired
deeply dedicated
deeply loyal
deeply passionate
deeply saddened
deeply dense
deeply disturbed
deeply scared
deeply depressed
in too deep
in deep shit
or deep asleep

But I am not deep.

What the Hell is it???

I've been going thru massive avoidance of getting started on holiday prep. Feeling a lot of resentment about it all. Partly I'm just mad at myself for letting things go and falling so far behind. So, I gave myself permission to just doodle for a little bit before I start cleaning 2 bathrooms (my least favorite chore!). This is what came out. What is it??? Horrendously ugly, that's what!! I think it's my inner anger and resentment, wanting to just fly away and say "Screw it"!! Hee hee! I'm feeling better already!!!

First Snow of 2011

I don't know about you but, it seems mighty early for this to me!!

Missing Mom

Eleanor June Peterson
1-15-1927 to 11-9-2009

Some Family

Just couldn't resist posting these Halloween photos of my niece, her boyfriend and their baby. Wesley will be 2 in January.